Moving Day.

I'm packing up and leaving. I'm through with this place. And you know what... my Blogger is coming with me.

Tumblr, here we come.

CARAMARIETERLEP.TUMBLR.COM


Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

Little Things

I let the little things get to me too much. They distract me.

I was at Disneyland. Who KNOWS the next time I'm going to go. I could've gotten an annual pass. I could've gotten a T-shirt. I should've done what I wanted to do but I let a small little thing lay a nest in my mind and thrive.

Such is life.

Aside from a bit of a tiff, Disneyland was so great. It was so nice to see everyone and hang out with everyone again. I am going to miss them so much.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

Tumblr Reading

You're too right.
life is a beautiful struggle.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

The Punchbowl for the Devil

Run ahead.
They'll follow soon enough.
Run, run, jog, jog, slow to a walk.
This looks way too familiar.
Trails and brush.
Heart stops and muscles tighten.
WHY oh why did I go ahead.
Stupid Cara.
When are they coming?
Soon?
I've never, ever felt this before.
I scan the bushes.
Rustling, just the wind?
Where are they.
For the first time in my life, my blood turns to ice and I feel paralyzed.
"CAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRAAAAAA."
Thank God.

Chelsea. I wonder why it couldn't have been someone else. I miss you too much. I love you too much. Why why why why why. My heart still hurts for you beautiful.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

Creeping Sadness

To all you assholes who continue to doubt my ability to withstand a long-distance relationship:

You clearly do not know me nor my ability to withstand the greatest obstacles. I do not overcome them with ease, but I do overcome them. I, for a fact, know YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE CAPACITY OF TRUE AND REAL LOVE. I do. Plain and simple. Deep within myself I am confident that love can conquer and will conquer the evil of distance. 

If you're right about your negativity, congradufuckinglations. If you're wrong, I will be the happiest woman alive.

Babe, if you don't listen to yourself, then who will listen to you?

Believe me.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

Space Junk

Even though I usually am a cynic and know "shooting stars" are usually pieces of OUR OWN SPACE TRASH being disintegrated as they fly through the atmosphere, you should know one thing.

I started wishing on them because of you.
Every one I see is just one more effort and step towards loving you and being with you forever.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie

The End

It was the end, and it was hard.

Power Surge softball has been in my life since I got serious about softball. Because of Power Surge, I AM the player, teammate, person I am today. Although there have been many girls that have come and gone, each and every single one has done SOMETHING for me whether it was making me more patient with myself and those stupid at bats or helping me realize that I could give a shit what others think when I'm having fun.

This past week was the trip of a lifetime. It was the best way possible to really say goodbye and to cleat up together one last time.

Thank you Fred and Rodney for always being there. You are the best coaches and role models around. I respect you more than you know.

I love you girls. Especially all of us "core" players that have been together for years. You have a special place in my heart no one else will ever be able to fill.
Thank you for everything.

Yours Truly,
Cara Marie
"Bird-eeee"